I’ve always been a competitive over-achiever.
Growing up with a brother only a year younger than me, AND living in a neighborhood full of boys made competition the atmosphere that molded me. So it’s of no surprise that I made it my goal to always out-do the boys. No matter the competition! I wanted to OUT DO them all! To be the BEST!
- Out Burp
- Out Fish
- Out jump (this attempt came at a steep cost)
- Out spit
- Out shoot
- Out run
- Out fight
- Out pee( never did win this one)
The list of “out do’s” never seemed to end. I could always find SOMETHING or SOMEONE I wanted to OUT DO. To be BETTER than.
It was exhausting place to be. Winning or being the BEST was not only a fallacy but an insatiable hunger. Because there was always someone who would eventually come along and begin out bettering the BEST of me.
I wish I could say that in my approach to 40 I’ve finally outgrown this competitive mindset.
But I can’t.
Because today, I make ME my own competition.
I do this by setting a goal of a PERSONAL BEST, that only grows higher and higher each time I crush it.
Yesterday I set a goal of beating my personal best on a timed run. The goal was an easy one, but I failed miserably. I didn’t take into consideration the TIMING and condition of the ATMOSPHERE in which I would be running.
It was extremely hot and the humidity was killer. As an asthmatic person, I absolutely cannot tolerate mid-day Texas heat and humidity. Much less in a run.
BUT- still determined to BE THE BEST, I started my run out winning. “I got this.” I thought. “I’m gonna crush this goal today.” Until I reached about .5 miles in. It was when the water bottle was running dry and I began seeing spots that I realized a hard truth. The circumstances I was in were working against me. I wasn’t gonna beat my BEST today.
BUT- I could still finish what I started and do so strong.
Sometimes we start out with great intentions. With goals of the grandest kind, yet fail miserably in reaching the bar we’ve set so high. Some days our BEST is just showing up and giving all we’ve got, even if it’s an empty jar.
God has shown me that our little bit is THE BEST, when it’s our ALL. You see, all the BEST things in this life are found in our little bit of “ this is ALL I’ve GOT” because that’s when HE GIVES US MORE.
More…….of whatever we need to finish.
So when I find I’m STRIVING for the best, may He remind me it is when I’m down to MY nothingness, and every circumstance is working against me —that I can have blessed assurance HIS BEST HAS YET TO COME.
……..Tell me, what do you have in your house?”
“Your servant has NOTHING there at all,” she said, “except a small jar of olive oil.” Elisha said, “Go around and ask all your neighbors for empty jars. Don’t ask for just a few. Then go inside and shut the door behind you and your sons. Pour oil into all the jars, and as each is filled, put it to one side.”
She left him and shut the door behind her and her sons. They brought the jars to her and she kept pouring. When all the jars were full, she said to her son, “Bring me another one.”
But he replied, “There is not a jar left.” Then the oil stopped flowing.
She went and told the man of God, and he said, “Go, sell the oil and pay your debts. You and your sons can live on what is left.” 2 Kings 4